Just imagine that you were born into a world where it’s so
mysterious as well as so magical to you...
Everything that revolves around you is very awkward. The first
step to start to look into other people’ eyes took you ages, your facial
expression never showed that you cared about anything around the people you are
with at the point of time. The impression you gave made people stereotyped you
into many categories that you don’t even understand.
You only focused a piece of everything; you are more
interested in the order of your toys. Spinning and moving objects fascinate
you. Certain colors give you unexplainable feeling that you could never express
even when asked about it.
There are also some things that you are sensitive about, the
grinding teeth, the panic sounds of the passed by ambulance, the cutting sound
on the chopping board distanced away from you in the kitchen.
Its like you have extra nerve or feelings that makes you
want to cover your ears so tight so that you could ignore it. At times, making your
own sound makes you feel more comforted. You think thoughts that only you could
understand and laugh it out loud.
Deep down inside you, there is an unexpressed human being
that shouts out silently for attention to be understood. But then again, you
know that you are in a world which not everyone will understand you. You are so
used to be constantly stared at or laughed at. But what could you do when in
your dimension you are normal; loved…..
This is how autism
feel like. Don’t judge, don’t question, don’t try to change them, try being in
their world-their magical world. Maybe and JUST MAYBE you know thaem better.
