Based on my own experience, let's think about the act of being selfishness and the reason behind being selfless. I am selfish in a sense that I like to focus on I, me and mine. It always happens when it comes to my personal problems. I had and have lots of problems and it was easy for me to get away when I focus on others. Always until last week, I focus on other people problems but deep inside of me my problems were still there, it did not disappear.
Everytime, I thought of talking it out, I also remind myself not to be selfish. Then you know what happens? i build something called: selflessness in the eyes of the beholder. People might think or saw me as selfless but deep inside i was selfish. Y selfish huh? because I am selfish enough to focus on other people's problems so that I do not need to focus on my own problem. That also means that I do not need to speak out or even cry about it to others, but just act strong. Isnt that being selfish and selfless at the same time? selfish because I did not give myself a chance and selfless because I think about others more than myself.
You wanted to run away from your inner problems by focusing on other people thinking that you are being selfless but you are not. Thinking that what you are doing is a noble thing but in reality you are not.
I did not overcome this problem because I am so use to it. But funny right when you think that you are being noble but actually you are just being a hypocrite(to be blunt)
so to be selfish or not?
Yours sincerely,
Its just my thoughts!
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