YOU ARE AN ANGEL SENT FROM HEAVEN BY GOD FOR ME!!!!! <3
Wednesday, 2 November 2011
Saturday, 29 October 2011
Wednesday, 14 September 2011
TOP 10 CRAZY THINGS THAT COULD HAPPEN TO ME
10. Study until masters/even PhD and then end up being a housewife!
9. To get married with an European (LOL, stop dreaming Rachel)
8. To read a book within 2hours, that means approximately 10seconds per page.
7. To be filthy rich.
6. AFTER SEVEN, To travel around the world.
5.To be the BEST SELLING AUTHOR!!!!!!!
4. To sit in the middle of the road at night and eat lots of lots of ICE-CREAM with ANITHA.
3. To jump a high building, just because I wanted to try how it feels like :) (totally crazy).
2. To save the world from something (dunno what is that SOMETHING yet).
1. To eat and be happy and worry about nothing at all for ten days...... worry about NOTHING means NOTHING.
9. To get married with an European (LOL, stop dreaming Rachel)
8. To read a book within 2hours, that means approximately 10seconds per page.
7. To be filthy rich.
6. AFTER SEVEN, To travel around the world.
5.To be the BEST SELLING AUTHOR!!!!!!!
4. To sit in the middle of the road at night and eat lots of lots of ICE-CREAM with ANITHA.
3. To jump a high building, just because I wanted to try how it feels like :) (totally crazy).
2. To save the world from something (dunno what is that SOMETHING yet).
1. To eat and be happy and worry about nothing at all for ten days...... worry about NOTHING means NOTHING.
Friday, 9 September 2011
Imagine
Imagine that you leave you body to be someone else,
You are sitting along the road,
Looking for a person to be,
Questioning who you want to be,
At the same time, you determine not to be who you was...
You are sitting along the road,
Looking for a person to be,
Questioning who you want to be,
At the same time, you determine not to be who you was...
Wednesday, 7 September 2011
Beautiful....
She still remembers that when she cried and seek comfort,
She ran to him.
And that's where it all started.
The bond that she never thought it'll last forever.
He was there,
To put the pieces of her heart together again,
He told her that he loved her when she felt unworthy of herself.
she still remembered when he kissed her hand,
and when she cried herself to sleep,he was there.
He offered comfortableness and trustworthiness through his hugs,
He fitted the missing piece her heart.
He listen when she really talked and give a few nods here, showing that he is still interested about the conversation.....
She ran to him.
And that's where it all started.
The bond that she never thought it'll last forever.
He was there,
To put the pieces of her heart together again,
He told her that he loved her when she felt unworthy of herself.
she still remembered when he kissed her hand,
and when she cried herself to sleep,he was there.
He offered comfortableness and trustworthiness through his hugs,
He fitted the missing piece her heart.
He listen when she really talked and give a few nods here, showing that he is still interested about the conversation.....
Friday, 2 September 2011
IN GOD'S TIMING EVERYTHING IS WELL
I am forever grateful for knowing Jesus Christ as my Savior and the Lord of my life. And all my life, I've known God's everlasting love for me:
I've been through so much pain and that in later year it turned out to be bitterness and anger and the feeling of ultimate unfairness. I've asked God why for the question that can't get answers. BUT one thing changed my life last year,Jesus changed my perceptions:
I always thought God only care much for the people around me and not for me. i also thought, if He had cared for me I would not have gone through so much of pain in my life. I've asked for breakthrough from my past and my thoughts for years but never felt or get one until last year.
Last year, during Easter I went for alter call with the same old need of breakthrough. I stand in God's presence and just let me be what I was. Behind my head there were flashbacks and colors of my past. I cried to God in so much of agony and asked Him to give me the breakthrough if not I am not going to move away. Sure enough, in God's timing everything is well. Ps.Mark Bearnard's wife prayed for me, and ministered to me about my pain which I never told her. She told me that Jesus knew and heard all my cries, not a single day or night the Jesus turned away from me. She also shared the same pain that she went through and told me that Jesus cares and want to give me the freedom when I am ready to let go the anger and bitterness in me. I did, also; she asked me to seek professional counseling so that i would not be stuck. I know I've received my breakthrough and also i need to work on it so that i can experience it fully.
Today:
I'm still going for counseling and changing my thoughts about my past.
I've learned one important thing, the memory or the flashbacks cannot be erased but with Jesus you can handle it better.
I learn to handle my anger and my past better. Everyday is a process, life is not magic so i struggle but I've found the breakthrough.
I choose to be in Christ presence when i feel negative about myself and fearful about my past. I choose worship whenever I feel empty.
Above is my story of how I found Jesus in a personal way after many years of being a christian, What about you? Find Jesus today and you will never be the same forever. Jesus knows your pain and He wants to help you ONLY if you want to let him into your hearts and make Him the Lord and Savior of your life.
I've been through so much pain and that in later year it turned out to be bitterness and anger and the feeling of ultimate unfairness. I've asked God why for the question that can't get answers. BUT one thing changed my life last year,Jesus changed my perceptions:
I always thought God only care much for the people around me and not for me. i also thought, if He had cared for me I would not have gone through so much of pain in my life. I've asked for breakthrough from my past and my thoughts for years but never felt or get one until last year.
Last year, during Easter I went for alter call with the same old need of breakthrough. I stand in God's presence and just let me be what I was. Behind my head there were flashbacks and colors of my past. I cried to God in so much of agony and asked Him to give me the breakthrough if not I am not going to move away. Sure enough, in God's timing everything is well. Ps.Mark Bearnard's wife prayed for me, and ministered to me about my pain which I never told her. She told me that Jesus knew and heard all my cries, not a single day or night the Jesus turned away from me. She also shared the same pain that she went through and told me that Jesus cares and want to give me the freedom when I am ready to let go the anger and bitterness in me. I did, also; she asked me to seek professional counseling so that i would not be stuck. I know I've received my breakthrough and also i need to work on it so that i can experience it fully.
Today:
I'm still going for counseling and changing my thoughts about my past.
I've learned one important thing, the memory or the flashbacks cannot be erased but with Jesus you can handle it better.
I learn to handle my anger and my past better. Everyday is a process, life is not magic so i struggle but I've found the breakthrough.
I choose to be in Christ presence when i feel negative about myself and fearful about my past. I choose worship whenever I feel empty.
Above is my story of how I found Jesus in a personal way after many years of being a christian, What about you? Find Jesus today and you will never be the same forever. Jesus knows your pain and He wants to help you ONLY if you want to let him into your hearts and make Him the Lord and Savior of your life.
Wednesday, 22 June 2011
Saying Good, Good Byes
I took this from the internet which I change it to suit my current situation.
“I hugged you like it was nothing at all. In fact, all that I wanted to do is to hold on to you forever. Also, hoped that time will pause and let me breath my heartache. Instead I did what seem logical to my sense: I let you go, smile and walk away. Then I cry at night, because I know that it will never be the same when I wake up tomorrow morning,”
I never really said good good byes to the people I know. All this while, precious people that I know along my life's journey, I've kept very close contact with them. Nevertheless, here's one of my good good bye & I hope this will be the last one too. I hate good byes. It does not belong in my dictionary.
The way we said good bye:
In nature, I like to bush around issues that I do not feel good talking about, so that is what I did. I bushed around to feel better about saying good bye yesterday. I talked about how were my weeks as well as joke around about a lot of things. Deep inside my heart, I was at a state of denial, thinking that this is NOT happening and it will not happen too soon. On the other hand, even if this happens, I assure myself that I’m going to meet you again.
I can see that you so want to talk about the good bye more than I am. Then it all begins when it was 2.45 PM. You asked me whether I needed explanation on why you are leaving. I did not want to because I’m scared the truth will hurt more then the good bye itself. But deep inside I’m wondering why do you had to leave.
When you gave me that fairy tale book, you made me feel like a small child. A small soldier child, who now needs to travel the journey on her own at the moment. I am not ready to replace you with someone else in the near future.
I will remember the tears in your eyes yesterday and the way you processed your thoughts to write on my gift. In the future, when I think of you, I too will a say a little prayer about you. I had good time knowing you & thank you for being able to journey with me.
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